Findinglove and comfort in his relationshipwith the model, 22, through every twist and turn in life, the pop star, 24, did just that as he revealed exceedingly personal details on everything fromtheir life togethertohis private strugglesduringan interview forVogue’s March cover. As he credited Baldwin’s “logical and structured” disposition for helping him through times of weakness, he grabbed her hand and disclosed her sweet, intimate nickname.
“I’m the emotionally unstable one,” Bieber said about the darkness he faced after becoming so famous so young. “I struggle with finding peace. I just feel like I care so much and I want things to be so good and I want people to like me.”
Annie Leibovitz
From drug abuse to “a legitimate problem with sex” and trust issues to withdrawing from both personal and professional relationships, Bieber admitted, “I found myself doing things that I was so ashamed of.”
Justin Bieber and Hailey Baldwin forVogue.Annie Leibovitz
“My mom always said to treat women with respect,” he said, detailing his use of Xanax while sleeping around. “For me that was always in my head while I was doing it, so I could never enjoy it. Drugs put a screen between me and what I was doing. It got pretty dark. I think there were times when my security was coming in late at night to check my pulse and see if I was still breathing.”
Making a conscious decision to take astep back from the career that made him millionsfrom the mere age of 13, Bieber said he “needed some time to evaluate myself: who I am, what I want out of my life, my relationships, who I want to be” once he realized he had lost sight of his morals and values after taking adeep dive into the industrywith no time to return to the surface for a breath of fresh air.
Justin Bieberand Hailey Baldwin on the March 2019 cover ofVogue.Annie Leibovitz
Having been burned too many times, Bieber says his relationships have also suffered due to suspicions that others have ulterior motives.
“It’s been so hard for me to trust people,” he explained. “I’ve struggled with the feeling that people are using me or aren’t really there for me, and that writers are looking to get something out of me and then use it against me.”
“One of the big things for me is trusting myself,” he said. “I’ve made some bad decisions personally, and in relationships. Those mistakes have affected my confidence in my judgment. It’s been difficult for me even to trust Hailey.”
Turning to Baldwin, the “Sorry” singer asked her, “We’ve been working through stuff. And it’s great, right?”
“It’s just that I’m fighting to do this the right way, to build a healthy relationship,” Baldwin replied. “I want people to know that. We’re coming from a really genuine place. But we’re two young people who are learning as we go. I’m not going to sit here and lie and say it’s all a magical fantasy. It’s always going to be hard. It’s a choice. You don’t feel it every single day. You don’t wake up every day saying, ‘I’m absolutely so in love and you are perfect.’ That’s not what being married is. But there’s something beautiful about it anyway — about wanting to fight for something, commit to building with someone. We’re really young, and that’s a scary aspect. We’re going to change a lot. But we’re committed to growing together and supporting each other in those changes. That’s how I look at it. At the end of the day, too, he’s my best friend. I never get sick of him.”
And the singer stripped down and dressed in nothing but a pair of darkDiorshorts and white sneakers, showing off the tattoos covering his body.
PEOPLE first confirmed a cover was in the worksin December when they were seen posing in a park in Los Angeles.
source: people.com
