Photo:Rich Fury/GettyTallulah Willisis opening up about coming to terms with her father’s condition.Penning an essay forVoguereleased Wednesday, the 29-year-old talks about how she grappled with her feelings about dadBruce Willis' declining health while their family was pursuing a diagnosis. The family went public with the 68-year-old actor’sfrontotemporal dementia diagnosisin February.Wrestling with her ownphysical and mental health strugglesat the time, Tallulah says she was “wrapped up in my body dysmorphia,” while “my dad was quietly struggling.““I had managed to give my central dad-feeling canal an epidural; the good feelings weren’t really there, the bad feelings weren’t really there,” she writes.Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.Bruce Willis and daughter Tallulah.Kevin Mazur/WireImageStill, the reality of the situation came to her “painfully” while attending a friend’s wedding.“I was at a wedding in the summer of 2021 on Martha’s Vineyard, and the bride’s father made a moving speech. Suddenly I realized that Iwould never get that moment, my dad speaking about me in adulthood at my wedding,” she explains. “It was devastating. I left the dinner table, stepped outside, and wept in the bushes.“The star, whose mother isDemi Moore, also shares that she takes “tons of photos” each time she goes to her dad’s house “of whatever I see, the state of things.“Bruce Willis with ex Demi Moore, wife Emma Heming Willis, and five daughters.Demi Moore/instagram"I’m like an archaeologist, searching for treasure in stuff that I never used to pay much attention to,” Tallulah says. “I have every voicemail from him saved on a hard drive. I find that I’m trying to document, to build a record for the day when he isn’t there to remind me of him and of us.““These days, my dad can be reliably found on the first floor of the house, somewhere in the big open plan of the kitchen-dining-living room, or in his office. Thankfully, dementia has not affected his mobility,” she adds.In addition to Tallulah, Bruce is also dad to daughtersScout, 31, andRumer, 34, with Moore, as well asEvelyn Penn, 8, andMabel Ray, 11, with wifeEmma Heming Willis.

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Tallulah Willisis opening up about coming to terms with her father’s condition.Penning an essay forVoguereleased Wednesday, the 29-year-old talks about how she grappled with her feelings about dadBruce Willis' declining health while their family was pursuing a diagnosis. The family went public with the 68-year-old actor’sfrontotemporal dementia diagnosisin February.Wrestling with her ownphysical and mental health strugglesat the time, Tallulah says she was “wrapped up in my body dysmorphia,” while “my dad was quietly struggling.““I had managed to give my central dad-feeling canal an epidural; the good feelings weren’t really there, the bad feelings weren’t really there,” she writes.Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.Bruce Willis and daughter Tallulah.Kevin Mazur/WireImageStill, the reality of the situation came to her “painfully” while attending a friend’s wedding.“I was at a wedding in the summer of 2021 on Martha’s Vineyard, and the bride’s father made a moving speech. Suddenly I realized that Iwould never get that moment, my dad speaking about me in adulthood at my wedding,” she explains. “It was devastating. I left the dinner table, stepped outside, and wept in the bushes.“The star, whose mother isDemi Moore, also shares that she takes “tons of photos” each time she goes to her dad’s house “of whatever I see, the state of things.“Bruce Willis with ex Demi Moore, wife Emma Heming Willis, and five daughters.Demi Moore/instagram"I’m like an archaeologist, searching for treasure in stuff that I never used to pay much attention to,” Tallulah says. “I have every voicemail from him saved on a hard drive. I find that I’m trying to document, to build a record for the day when he isn’t there to remind me of him and of us.““These days, my dad can be reliably found on the first floor of the house, somewhere in the big open plan of the kitchen-dining-living room, or in his office. Thankfully, dementia has not affected his mobility,” she adds.In addition to Tallulah, Bruce is also dad to daughtersScout, 31, andRumer, 34, with Moore, as well asEvelyn Penn, 8, andMabel Ray, 11, with wifeEmma Heming Willis.

Tallulah Willisis opening up about coming to terms with her father’s condition.

Penning an essay forVoguereleased Wednesday, the 29-year-old talks about how she grappled with her feelings about dadBruce Willis' declining health while their family was pursuing a diagnosis. The family went public with the 68-year-old actor’sfrontotemporal dementia diagnosisin February.

Wrestling with her ownphysical and mental health strugglesat the time, Tallulah says she was “wrapped up in my body dysmorphia,” while “my dad was quietly struggling.”

“I had managed to give my central dad-feeling canal an epidural; the good feelings weren’t really there, the bad feelings weren’t really there,” she writes.

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Bruce Willis and daughter Tallulah.Kevin Mazur/WireImage

Bruce Willis and Tallulah Willis

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Still, the reality of the situation came to her “painfully” while attending a friend’s wedding.

“I was at a wedding in the summer of 2021 on Martha’s Vineyard, and the bride’s father made a moving speech. Suddenly I realized that Iwould never get that moment, my dad speaking about me in adulthood at my wedding,” she explains. “It was devastating. I left the dinner table, stepped outside, and wept in the bushes.”

The star, whose mother isDemi Moore, also shares that she takes “tons of photos” each time she goes to her dad’s house “of whatever I see, the state of things.”

Bruce Willis with ex Demi Moore, wife Emma Heming Willis, and five daughters.Demi Moore/instagram

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“I’m like an archaeologist, searching for treasure in stuff that I never used to pay much attention to,” Tallulah says. “I have every voicemail from him saved on a hard drive. I find that I’m trying to document, to build a record for the day when he isn’t there to remind me of him and of us.”

“These days, my dad can be reliably found on the first floor of the house, somewhere in the big open plan of the kitchen-dining-living room, or in his office. Thankfully, dementia has not affected his mobility,” she adds.

In addition to Tallulah, Bruce is also dad to daughtersScout, 31, andRumer, 34, with Moore, as well asEvelyn Penn, 8, andMabel Ray, 11, with wifeEmma Heming Willis.

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